I will start by telling you what I am feeling at this moment and what has led up to it. I am in Myrtle Beach on vacation with my Dad and associated family. I have a great time up here and I love it. But for some reason I cannot explain or understand...I feel like I just want to get rid of everyone around me and just be alone because they realllly annoy the hell out of me A LOT lately. I know Trez can understand this when I say that I hate listening to stupid people...especially when I have no choice whether I can listen to them or not. It just makes me want to knife my ears out.
But on another note, I also simultaneously feel the strong need to be with a girl (not just sexually) but to just share things with. But I also know that if I want that then I will have to do different things to make her happy and change what I like to do. I just like the way girls are and the way they do things waay too much to just ignore them but I am also too big of a pussy to just go up to a random girl that I think would be good for me and to just say hi and talk to them. I don't know why this is, but there is just something about speaking to someone for the first time that really makes me nervous. I am not shy around girls I am comfortable with, but with girls that I just am acquainted with or just vaguely know, I act like a complete fool and am not myself, which is bad for whatever.
In essence, I just want everything in the world to go my way (and for stupid people on eBay to stop being fake so I can't sell my laptop!) because then I wouldn't have to think about this stuff and there would be no need for me to worry about anything or feel this way. I don't know, but sometimes I wish I could just be like Timmy Turner in that one episode of the Fairly Odd Parents where I could just have all of my emotions taken away at times like this.
Please do not comment on this, it was just to get my thoughts out so I can look back and see later. I hope this revealed a bit more about myself to you. Happy Summer time peeps.