My life seems to have been MUCH more full of events than what it has previously has been and I do not know exactly how to deal with it all. I have been used to having so much time that I could spend as I would (for studying, relaxing, sports, whatever) and now I find out that I have much less of that time. This is mainly due to my new involvement within the Phi Delta Chi fraternity, but I hope that this will soon become less and I will be able to regain the most control over my life. I am currently still in the process of pledging and when that is over I hope that I will stop feeling so over encumbered (Oblivion reference). Honestly, I just feel so stressed all the time. I always feel rushed to get things done and I never allow myself to just slow down and deal with the problem at hand. That is what I am planning on doing this weekend. I need to. Or else I will end up getting much worse grades. This feeling of great pressure upon myself is most uninvited into my life and I just want to get rid of it. Well, I'm going to go do my homework and study so I can solve the problem. Peace.
Well hello everyone. I just wanted to write another blog and let you know how things are going with me. Well I just got a gaming keyboard so now I am officially a PC gamer baha. And since no one cares about that, I will move on to the next topic.
My life seems to have been MUCH more full of events than what it has previously has been and I do not know exactly how to deal with it all. I have been used to having so much time that I could spend as I would (for studying, relaxing, sports, whatever) and now I find out that I have much less of that time. This is mainly due to my new involvement within the Phi Delta Chi fraternity, but I hope that this will soon become less and I will be able to regain the most control over my life. I am currently still in the process of pledging and when that is over I hope that I will stop feeling so over encumbered (Oblivion reference). Honestly, I just feel so stressed all the time. I always feel rushed to get things done and I never allow myself to just slow down and deal with the problem at hand. That is what I am planning on doing this weekend. I need to. Or else I will end up getting much worse grades. This feeling of great pressure upon myself is most uninvited into my life and I just want to get rid of it. Well, I'm going to go do my homework and study so I can solve the problem. Peace.
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Just wanted to write in this again to let some of you know what's up right now. I am home right now and it's pretty sweet, but it is a completely different atmosphere than what college life is like. This is obvious, but it seems like every time I come home I seem to think much more deeply about my life and whatnot. I do not know why I do this, but that is it. Here is where I started this blog because I was thinking way too hard about a Disney movie. Now don't get me wrong, I love being around my family and stuff, but I just don't understand what it is that makes this part of me reappear only when I am at home. It must have something to do with the fact that I grew up here and most of my memories are of when I was younger and didn't have to worry about anything. So because that is what happened here I tend to reminisce a lot about stuff like that and it just gets me to thinking about what the hell I am doing with my life.
I have made a variety of changes to my life recently and I hope that these are good decisions for my future, but it seems to be eating away at the old me that most people are used to and comfortable with. A few things I have changed about my life is the way I am looking at doing things, especially regarding social activities with my friends at college. I am trying to be more outgoing and so far it's been really fun and I don't regret anything. I am also trying to join a fraternity, Phi Delta Chi, and I am really having a great time with everything I am doing for that. But I think some people see me for a completely different person than who I actually am. This is understandable because most of the people I am coming into contact with now only know a little part of me. So hopefully some of those newer people will read this and see that I am different from who they think me to be. I also feel like I realllly want to just go back a few years in my life and start over. I know that I will never be able to do this, but it would be sweet because I would epic win everywhere. But that is aside from the point. I just don't want to change into someone who I wont be able to live with later on in my life. If I think that this is good for me, then it might be. But only for right now. So I guess what I am saying is that I have some life-sorting to get to. But first I must finish what I started and make sure my grades stay up and I don't screw around too much. Until I get sentimental again, BOOSH. |
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